Paracelsus: Part I: Paracelsus Aspires

Scene. Wrzburg; a garden in the environs. 1512.     Festus, Paracelsus, Michal.     Paracelsus.     Come close to me, dear friends; still closer; thus!     Close to the heart which, though long time roll by     Ere it again beat quicker, pressed to yours,     As now it beats perchance a long, long time     At least henceforth your memories shall make     Quiet and fragrant as befits their home.     Nor shall my memory want a home in yours     Alas, that it requires too well such free     Forgiving love as shall embalm it there!     For if you would remember me aright,     As I was born to be, you must forget     All fitful strange and moody waywardness     Which e'er confused my better spirit, to dwell     Only on moments such as these, dear friends!      My heart no truer, but my words and ways     More true to it: as Michal, some months hence,     Will say, "this autumn was a pleasant time,"     For some few sunny days; and overlook     Its bleak wind, hankering after pining leaves.     Autumn would fain be sunny; I would look     Liker my nature's truth: and both are frail,     And both beloved, for all our frailty.     Michal.     Aureole!     Paracelsus.     Drop by drop! she is weeping like a child!     Not so! I am content more than content;     Nay, autumn wins you best by this its mute     Appeal to sympathy for its decay:     Look up, sweet Michal, nor esteem the less     Your stained and drooping vines their grapes bow down,     Nor blame those creaking trees bent with their fruit,     That apple-tree with a rare after-birth     Of peeping blooms sprinkled its wealth among!     Then for the winds what wind that ever raved     Shall vex that ash which overlooks you both,     So proud it wears its berries? Ah, at length,     The old smile meet for her, the lady of this     Sequestered nest! this kingdom, limited     Alone by one old populous green wall     Tenanted by the ever-busy flies,     Grey crickets and shy lizards and quick spiders,     Each family of the silver-threaded moss     Which, look through near, this way, and it appears     A stubble-field or a cane-brake, a marsh     Of bulrush whitening in the sun: laugh now!     Fancy the crickets, each one in his house,     Looking out, wondering at the world or best,     Yon painted snail with his gay shell of dew,     Travelling to see the glossy balls high up     Hung by the caterpillar, like gold lamps.     Michal.     In truth we have lived carelessly and well.     Paracelsus.     And shall, my perfect pair! each, trust me, born     For the other; nay, your very hair, when mixed,     Is of one hue. For where save in this nook     Shall you two walk, when I am far away,     And wish me prosperous fortune? Stay: that plant     Shall never wave its tangles lightly and softly,     As a queen's languid and imperial arm     Which scatters crowns among her lovers, but you     Shall be reminded to predict to me     Some great success! Ah see, the sun sinks broad     Behind Saint Saviour's: wholly gone, at last!     Festus.     Now, Aureole, stay those wandering eyes awhile!     You are ours to-night, at least; and while you spoke     Of Michal and her tears, I thought that none     Could willing leave what he so seemed to love:     But that last look destroys my dream that look     As if, where'er you gazed, there stood a star!     How far was Wrzburg with its church and spire     And garden-walls and all things they contain,     From that look's far alighting?     Paracelsus.     I but spoke     And looked alike from simple joy to see     The beings I love best, shut in so well     From all rude chances like to be my lot,     That, when afar, my weary spirit, disposed     To lose awhile its care in soothing thoughts     Of them, their pleasant features, looks and words,     Needs never hesitate, nor apprehend     Encroaching trouble may have reached them too,     Nor have recourse to fancy's busy aid     And fashion even a wish in their behalf     Beyond what they possess already here;     But, unobstructed, may at once forget     Itself in them, assured how well they fare.     Beside, this Festus knows he holds me one     Whom quiet and its charms arrest in vain,     One scarce aware of all the joys I quit,     Too filled with airy hopes to make account     Of soft delights his own heart garners up:     Whereas behold how much our sense of all     That's beauteous proves alike! When Festus learns     That every common pleasure of the world     Affects me as himself; that I have just     As varied appetite for joy derived     From common things; a stake in life, in short,     Like his; a stake which rash pursuit of aims     That life affords not, would as soon destroy;     He may convince himself that, this in view,     I shall act well advised. And last, because,     Though heaven and earth and all things were at stake,     Sweet Michal must not weep, our parting eve.     Festus.     True: and the eve is deepening, and we sit     As little anxious to begin our talk     As though to-morrow I could hint of it     As we paced arm-in-arm the cheerful town     At sun-dawn; or could whisper it by fits     (Trithemius busied with his class the while)     In that dim chamber where the noon-streaks peer     Half-frightened by the awful tomes around;     Or in some grassy lane unbosom all     From even-blush to midnight: but, to-morrow!     Have I full leave to tell my inmost mind?     We have been brothers, and henceforth the world     Will rise between us: all my freest mind?     'T is the last night, dear Aureole!     Paracelsus.     Oh, say on!     Devise some test of love, some arduous feat     To be performed for you: say on! If night     Be spent the while, the better! Recall how oft     My wondrous plans and dreams and hopes and fears     Have never wearied you, oh no! as I     Recall, and never vividly as now,     Your true affection, born when Einsiedeln     And its green hills were all the world to us;     And still increasing to this night which ends     My further stay at Wrzburg. Oh, one day     You shall be very proud! Say on, dear friends!     Festus.     In truth? 'T is for my proper peace, indeed,     Rather than yours; for vain all projects seem     To stay your course: I said my latest hope     Is fading even now. A story tells     Of some far embassy despatched to win     The favour of an eastern king, and how     The gifts they offered proved but dazzling dust     Shed from the ore-beds native to his clime.     Just so, the value of repose and love,     I meant should tempt you, better far than I     You seem to comprehend; and yet desist     No whit from projects where repose nor love     Has part.     Paracelsus.     Once more? Alas! As I foretold.     Festus.     A solitary briar the bank puts forth     To save our swan's nest floating out to sea.     Paracelsus.     Dear Festus, hear me. What is it you wish?     That I should lay aside my heart's pursuit,     Abandon the sole ends for which I live,     Reject God's great commission, and so die!     You bid me listen for your true love's sake:     Yet how has grown that love? Even in a long     And patient cherishing of the self-same spirit     It now would quell; as though a mother hoped     To stay the lusty manhood of the child     Once weak upon her knees. I was not born     Informed and fearless from the first, but shrank     From aught which marked me out apart from men:     I would have lived their life, and died their death,     Lost in their ranks, eluding destiny:     But you first guided me through doubt and fear,     Taught me to know mankind and know myself;     And now that I am strong and full of hope,     That, from my soul, I can reject all aims     Save those your earnest words made plain to me,     Now that I touch the brink of my design,     When I would have a triumph in their eyes,     A glad cheer in their voices Michal weeps,     And Festus ponders gravely!     Festus.     When you deign     To hear my purpose . . .     Paracelsus.     Hear it? I can say     Beforehand all this evening's conference!     'T is this way, Michal, that he uses: first,     Or he declares, or I, the leading points     Of our best scheme of life, what is man's end     And what God's will; no two faiths e'er agreed     As his with mine. Next, each of us allows     Faith should be acted on as best we may;     Accordingly, I venture to submit     My plan, in lack of better, for pursuing     The path which God's will seems to authorize.     Well, he discerns much good in it, avows     This motive worthy, that hope plausible,     A danger here to be avoided, there     An oversight to be repaired: in fine     Our two minds go together all the good     Approved by him, I gladly recognize,     All he counts bad, I thankfully discard,     And nought forbids my looking up at last     For some stray comfort in his cautious brow.     When, lo! I learn that, spite of all, there lurks     Some innate and inexplicable germ     Of failure in my scheme; so that at last     It all amounts to this the sovereign proof     That we devote ourselves to God, is seen     In living just as though no God there were;     A life which, prompted by the sad and blind     Folly of man, Festus abhors the most;     But which these tenets sanctify at once,     Though to less subtle wits it seems the same,     Consider it how they may.     Michal.     Is it so, Festus     He speaks so calmly and kindly: is it so?     Paracelsus.     Reject those glorious visions of God's love     And man's design; laugh loud that God should send     Vast longings to direct us; say how soon     Power satiates these, or lust, or gold; I know     The world's cry well, and how to answer it.     But this ambiguous warfare . . .     Festus.     . . . Wearies so     That you will grant no last leave to your friend     To urge it? for his sake, not yours? I wish     To send my soul in good hopes after you;     Never to sorrow that uncertain words     Erringly apprehended, a new creed     Ill understood, begot rash trust in you,     Had share in your undoing.     Paracelsus.     Choose your side,     Hold or renounce: but meanwhile blame me not     Because I dare to act on your own views,     Nor shrink when they point onward, nor espy     A peril where they most ensure success.     Festus.     Prove that to me but that! Prove you abide     Within their warrant, nor presumptuous boast     God's labour laid on you; prove, all you covet     A mortal may expect; and, most of all,     Prove the strange course you now affect, will lead     To its attainment and I bid you speed,     Nay, count the minutes till you venture forth!     You smile; but I had gathered from slow thought     Much musing on the fortunes of my friend     Matter I deemed could not be urged in vain;     But it all leaves me at my need: in shreds     And fragments I must venture what remains.     Michal.     Ask at once, Festus, wherefore he should scorn . . .     Festus.     Stay, Michal: Aureole, I speak guardedly     And gravely, knowing well, whate'er your error,     This is no ill-considered choice of yours,     No sudden fancy of an ardent boy.     Not from your own confiding words alone     Am I aware your passionate heart long since     Gave birth to, nourished and at length matures     This scheme. I will not speak of Einsiedeln,     Where I was born your elder by some years     Only to watch you fully from the first:     In all beside, our mutual tasks were fixed     Even then 't was mine to have you in my view     As you had your own soul and those intents     Which filled it when, to crown your dearest wish,     With a tumultuous heart, you left with me     Our childhood's home to join the favoured few     Whom, here, Trithemius condescends to teach     A portion of his lore: and not one youth     Of those so favoured, whom you now despise,     Came earnest as you came, resolved, like you,     To grasp all, and retain all, and deserve     By patient toil a wide renown like his.     Now, this new ardour which supplants the old     I watched, too; 't was significant and strange,     In one matched to his soul's content at length     With rivals in the search for wisdom's prize,     To see the sudden pause, the total change;     From contest, the transition to repose     From pressing onward as his fellows pressed,     To a blank idleness, yet most unlike     The dull stagnation of a soul, content,     Once foiled, to leave betimes a thriveless quest.     That careless bearing, free from all pretence     Even of contempt for what it ceased to seek     Smiling humility, praising much, yet waiving     What it professed to praise though not so well     Maintained but that rare outbreaks, fierce and brief,     Revealed the hidden scorn, as quickly curbed.     That ostentatious show of past defeat,     That ready acquiescence in contempt,     I deemed no other than the letting go     His shivered sword, of one about to spring     Upon his foe's throat; but it was not thus:     Not that way looked your brooding purpose then.     For after-signs disclosed, what you confirmed,     That you prepared to task to the uttermost     Your strength, in furtherance of a certain aim     Which while it bore the name your rivals gave     Their own most puny efforts was so vast     In scope that it included their best flights,     Combined them, and desired to gain one prize     In place of many, the secret of the world,     Of man, and man's true purpose, path and fate.     That you, not nursing as a mere vague dream     This purpose, with the sages of the past,     Have struck upon a way to this, if all     You trust be true, which following, heart and soul,     You, if a man may, dare aspire to know:     And that this aim shall differ from a host     Of aims alike in character and kind,     Mostly in this, that in itself alone     Shall its reward be, not an alien end     Blending therewith; no hope nor fear nor joy     Nor woe, to elsewhere move you, but this pure     Devotion to sustain you or betray:     Thus you aspire.     Paracelsus.     You shall not state it thus:     I should not differ from the dreamy crew     You speak of. I profess no other share     In the selection of my lot, than this     My ready answer to the will of God     Who summons me to be his organ. All     Whose innate strength supports them shall succeed     No better than the sages.     Festus.     Such the aim, then,     God sets before you; and't is doubtless need     That he appoint no less the way of praise     Than the desire to praise; for, though I hold     With you, the setting forth such praise to be     The natural end and service of a man,     And hold such praise is best attained when man     Attains the general welfare of his kind     Yet this, the end, is not the instrument.     Presume not to serve God apart from such     Appointed channel as he wills shall gather     Imperfect tributes, for that sole obedience     Valued perchance! He seeks not that his altars     Blaze, careless how, so that they do but blaze.     Suppose this, then; that God selected you     To know (heed well your answers, for my faith     Shall meet implicitly what they affirm)     I cannot think you dare annex to such     Selection aught beyond a steadfast will,     An intense hope; nor let your gifts create     Scorn or neglect of ordinary means     Conducive to success, make destiny     Dispense with man's endeavour. Now, dare you search     Your inmost heart, and candidly avow     Whether you have not rather wild desire     For this distinction than security     Of its existence? whether you discern     The path to the fulfilment of your purpose     Clear as that purpose and again, that purpose     Clear as your yearning to be singled out     For its pursuer. Dare you answer this?     Paracelsus     [after a pause].     No, I have nought to fear! Who will may know     The secret'st workings of my soul. What though     It be so? if indeed the strong desire     Eclipse the aim in me? if splendour break     Upon the outset of my path alone,     And duskest shade succeed? What fairer seal     Shall I require to my authentic mission     Than this fierce energy? this instinct striving     Because its nature is to strive? enticed     By the security of no broad course,     Without success forever in its eyes!     How know I else such glorious fate my own,     But in the restless irresistible force     That works within me? Is it for human will     To institute such impulses? still less,     To disregard their promptings! What should I     Do, kept among you all; your loves, your cares,     Your life all to be mine? Be sure that God     Ne'er dooms to waste the strength he deigns impart!     Ask the geier-eagle why she stoops at once     Into the vast and unexplored abyss,     What full-grown power informs her from the first,     Why she not marvels, strenuously beating     The silent boundless regions of the sky!     Be sure they sleep not whom God needs! Nor fear     Their holding light his charge, when every hour     That finds that charge delayed, is a new death.     This for the faith in which I trust; and hence     I can abjure so well the idle arts     These pedants strive to learn and teach; Black Arts,     Great Works, the Secret and Sublime, forsooth     Let others prize: too intimate a tie     Connects me with our God! A sullen fiend     To do my bidding, fallen and hateful sprites     To help me what are these, at best, beside     God helping, God directing everywhere,     So that the earth shall yield her secrets up,     And every object there be charged to strike,     Teach, gratify her master God appoints?     And I am young, my Festus, happy and free!     I can devote myself; I have a life     To give; I, singled out for this, the One!     Think, think! the wide East, where all Wisdom sprung;     The bright South, where she dwelt; the hopeful North,     All are passed o'er it lights on me! 'T is time     New hopes should animate the world, new light     Should dawn from new revealings to a race     Weighed down so long, forgotten so long; thus shall     The heaven reserved for us at last receive     Creatures whom no unwonted splendours blind,     But ardent to confront the unclouded blaze.     Whose beams not seldom blessed their pilgrimage,     Not seldom glorified their life below.     Festus.     My words have their old fate and make faint stand     Against your glowing periods. Call this, truth     Why not pursue it in a fast retreat,     Some one of Learning's many palaces,     After approved example? seeking there     Calm converse with the great dead, soul to soul,     Who laid up treasure with the like intent     So lift yourself into their airy place,     And fill out full their unfulfilled careers,     Unravelling the knots their baffled skill     Pronounced inextricable, true! but left     Far less confused. A fresh eye, a fresh hand,     Might do much at their vigour's waning-point;     Succeeding with new-breathed new-hearted force,     As at old games the runner snatched the torch     From runner still: this way success might be.     But you have coupled with your enterprise,     An arbitrary self-repugnant scheme     Of seeking it in strange and untried paths.     What books are in the desert? Writes the sea     The secret of her yearning in vast caves     Where yours will fall the first of human feet?     Has wisdom sat there and recorded aught     You press to read? Why turn aside from her     To visit, where her vesture never glanced,     Now solitudes consigned to barrenness     By God's decree, which who shall dare impugn?     Now ruins where she paused but would not stay,     Old ravaged cities that, renouncing her,     She called an endless curse on, so it came:     Or worst of all, now men you visit, men,     Ignoblest troops who never heard her voice     Or hate it, men without one gift from Rome     Or Athens, these shall Aureole's teachers be!     Rejecting past example, practice, precept,     Aidless'mid these he thinks to stand alone:     Thick like a glory round the Stagirite     Your rivals throng, the sages: here stand you!     Whatever you may protest, knowledge is not     Paramount in your love; or for her sake     You would collect all help from every source     Rival, assistant, friend, foe, all would merge     In the broad class of those who showed her haunts,     And those who showed them not.     Paracelsus.     What shall I say?     Festus, from childhood I have been possessed     By a fire by a true fire, or faint or fierce,     As from without some master, so it seemed,     Repressed or urged its current: this but ill     Expresses what would I convey: but rather     I will believe an angel ruled me thus,     Than that my soul's own workings, own high nature,     So became manifest. I knew not then     What whispered in the evening, and spoke out     At midnight. If some mortal, born too soon,     Were laid away in some great trance the ages     Coming and going all the while till dawned     His true time's advent; and could then record     The words they spoke who kept watch by his bed,     Then I might tell more of the breath so light     Upon my eyelids, and the fingers light     Among my hair. Youth is confused; yet never     So dull was I but, when that spirit passed,     I turned to him, scarce consciously, as turns     A water-snake when fairies cross his sleep.     And having this within me and about me     While Einsiedeln, its mountains, lakes and woods     Confined me what oppressive joy was mine     When life grew plain, and I first viewed the thronged,     The everlasting concourse of mankind!     Believe that ere I joined them, ere I knew     The purpose of the pageant, or the place     Consigned me in its ranks while, just awake,     Wonder was freshest and delight most pure     'T was then that least supportable appeared     A station with the brightest of the crowd,     A portion with the proudest of them all.     And from the tumult in my breast, this only     Could I collect, that I must thenceforth die     Or elevate myself far, far above     The gorgeous spectacle. I seemed to long     At once to trample on, yet save mankind,     To make some unexampled sacrifice     In their behalf, to wring some wondrous good     From heaven or earth for them, to perish, winning     Eternal weal in the act: as who should dare     Pluck out the angry thunder from its cloud,     That, all its gathered flame discharged on him,     No storm might threaten summer's azure sleep:     Yet never to be mixed with men so much     As to have part even in my own work, share     In my own largess. Once the feat achieved,     I would withdraw from their officious praise,     Would gently put aside their profuse thanks.     Like some knight traversing a wilderness,     Who, on his way, may chance to free a tribe     Of desert-people from their dragon-foe;     When all the swarthy race press round to kiss     His feet, and choose him for their king, and yield     Their poor tents, pitched among the sand-hills, for     His realm: and he points, smiling, to his scarf     Heavy with riveled gold, his burgonet     Gay set with twinkling stones and to the East,     Where these must be displayed!     Festus.     Good: let us hear     No more about your nature, "which first shrank     "From all that marked you out apart from men!"     Paracelsus.     I touch on that; these words but analyse     The first mad impulse: 't was as brief as fond,     For as I gazed again upon the show,     I soon distinguished here and there a shape     Palm-wreathed and radiant, forehead and full eye.     Well pleased was I their state should thus at once     Interpret my own thoughts: "Behold the clue     "To all," I rashly said, "and what I pine     "To do, these have accomplished: we are peers.     "They know and therefore rule: I, too, will know!"     You were beside me, Festus, as you say;     You saw me plunge in their pursuits whom fame     Is lavish to attest the lords of mind,     Not pausing to make sure the prize in view     Would satiate my cravings when obtained,     But since they strove I strove. Then came a slow     And strangling failure. We aspired alike,     Yet not the meanest plodder, Tritheim counts     A marvel, but was all-sufficient, strong,     Or staggered only at his own vast wits;     While I was restless, nothing satisfied,     Distrustful, most perplexed. I would slur over     That struggle; suffice it, that I loathed myself     As weak compared with them, yet felt somehow     A mighty power was brooding, taking shape     Within me; and this lasted till one night     When, as I sat revolving it and more,     A still voice from without said "Seest thou not,     "Desponding child, whence spring defeat and loss?     "Even from thy strength. Consider: hast thou gazed     "Presumptuously on wisdom's countenance,     "No veil between; and can thy faltering hands,     "Unguided by the brain the sight absorbs,     "Pursue their task as earnest blinkers do     "Whom radiance ne'er distracted? Live their life     "If thou wouldst share their fortune, choose their eyes     "Unfed by splendour. Let each task present     "Its petty good to thee. Waste not thy gifts     "In profitless waiting for the gods' descent,     "But have some idol of thine own to dress     "With their array. Know, not for knowing's sake,     "But to become a star to men for ever;     "Know, for the gain it gets, the praise it brings,     "The wonder it inspires, the love it breeds:     "Look one step onward, and secure that step!"     And I smiled as one never smiles but once,     Then first discovering my own aim's extent,     Which sought to comprehend the works of God,     And God himself, and all God's intercourse     With the human mind; I understood, no less,     My fellows' studies, whose true worth I saw,     But smiled not, well aware who stood by me.     And softer came the voice "There is a way:     "'T is hard for flesh to tread therein, imbued     "With frailty hopeless, if indulgence first     "Have ripened inborn germs of sin to strength:     "Wilt thou adventure for my sake and man's,     "Apart from all reward?" And last it breathed     "Be happy, my good soldier; I am by thee,     "Be sure, even to the end!" I answered not,     Knowing him. As he spoke, I was endued     With comprehension and a steadfast will;     And when he ceased, my brow was sealed his own.     If there took place no special change in me,     How comes it all things wore a different hue     Thenceforward? pregnant with vast consequence,     Teeming with grand result, loaded with fate?     So that when, quailing at the mighty range     Of secret truths which yearn for birth, I haste     To contemplate undazzled some one truth,     Its bearings and effects alone at once     What was a speck expands into a star,     Asking a life to pass exploring thus,     Till I near craze. I go to prove my soul!     I see my way as birds their trackless way.     I shall arrive! what time, what circuit first,     I ask not: but unless God send his hail     Or blinding fireballs, sleet or stifling snow,     In some time, his good time, I shall arrive:     He guides me and the bird. In his good time!     Michal.     Vex him no further, Festus; it is so!     Festus.     Just thus you help me ever. This would hold     Were it the trackless air, and not a path     Inviting you, distinct with footprints yet     Of many a mighty marcher gone that way.     You may have purer views than theirs, perhaps,     But they were famous in their day the proofs     Remain. At least accept the light they lend.     Paracelsus.     Their light! the sum of all is briefly this:     They laboured and grew famous, and the fruits     Are best seen in a dark and groaning earth     Given over to a blind and endless strife     With evils, what of all their lore abates?     No; I reject and spurn them utterly     And all they teach. Shall I still sit beside     Their dry wells, with a white lip and filmed eye,     While in the distance heaven is blue above     Mountains where sleep the unsunned tarns?     Festus.     And yet     As strong delusions have prevailed ere now.     Men have set out as gallantly to seek     Their ruin. I have heard of such: yourself     Avow all hitherto have failed and fallen.     Michal.     Nay, Festus, when but as the pilgrims faint     Through the drear way, do you expect to see     Their city dawn amid the clouds afar?     Paracelsus.     Ay, sounds it not like some old well-known tale?     For me, I estimate their works and them     So rightly, that at times I almost dream     I too have spent a life the sages' way,     And tread once more familiar paths. Perchance     I perished in an arrogant self-reliance     Ages ago; and in that act, a prayer     For one more chance went up so earnest, so     Instinct with better light let in by death,     That life was blotted out not so completely     But scattered wrecks enough of it remain,     Dim memories, as now, when once more seems     The goal in sight again. All which, indeed,     Is foolish, and only means the flesh I wear,     The earth I tread, are not more clear to me     Than my belief, explained to you or no.     Festus.     And who am I, to challenge and dispute     That clear belief? I will divest all fear.     Michal.     Then Aureole is God's commissary! he shall     Be great and grand and all for us!     Paracelsus.     No, sweet!     Not great and grand. If I can serve mankind     'T is well; but there our intercourse must end:     I never will be served by those I serve.     Festus.     Look well to this; here is a plague-spot, here,     Disguise it how you may! 'T is true, you utter     This scorn while by our side and loving us;     'T is but a spot as yet: but it will break     Into a hideous blotch if overlooked.     How can that course be safe which from the first     Produces carelessness to human love?     It seems you have abjured the helps which men     Who overpass their kind, as you would do,     Have humbly sought; I dare not thoroughly probe     This matter, lest I learn too much. Let be     That popular praise would little instigate     Your efforts, nor particular approval     Reward you; put reward aside; alone     You shall go forth upon your arduous task,     None shall assist you, none partake your toil,     None share your triumph: still you must retain     Some one to cast your glory on, to share     Your rapture with. Were I elect like you,     I would encircle me with love, and raise     A rampart of my fellows; it should seem     Impossible for me to fail, so watched     By gentle friends who made my cause their own.     They should ward off fate's envy the great gift,     Extravagant when claimed by me alone,     Being so a gift to them as well as me.     If danger daunted me or ease seduced,     How calmly their sad eyes should gaze reproach!     Michal.     O Aureole, can I sing when all alone,     Without first calling, in my fancy, both     To listen by my side even I! And you?     Do you not feel this? Say that you feel this!     Paracelsus.     I feel't is pleasant that my aims, at length     Allowed their weight, should be supposed to need     A further strengthening in these goodly helps!     My course allures for its own sake, its sole     Intrinsic worth; and ne'er shall boat of mine     Adventure forth for gold and apes at once.     Your sages say, "if human, therefore weak:"     If weak, more need to give myself entire     To my pursuit; and by its side, all else . . .     No matter! I deny myself but little     In waiving all assistance save its own.     Would there were some real sacrifice to make!     Your friends the sages threw their joys away,     While I must be content with keeping mine.     Festus.     But do not cut yourself from human weal!     You cannot thrive a man that dares affect     To spend his life in service to his kind     For no reward of theirs, unbound to them     By any tie; nor do so, Aureole! No     There are strange punishments for such. Give up     (Although no visible good flow thence) some part     Of the glory to another; hiding thus,     Even from yourself, that all is for yourself.     Say, say almost to God "I have done all     "For her, not for myself!"     Paracelsus.     And who but lately     Was to rejoice in my success like you?     Whom should I love but both of you?     Festus.     I know not:     But know this, you, that't is no will of mine     You should abjure the lofty claims you make;     And this the cause I can no longer seek     To overlook the truth, that there would be     A monstrous spectacle upon the earth,     Beneath the pleasant sun, among the trees:     A being knowing not what love is. Hear me!     You are endowed with faculties which bear     Annexed to them as't were a dispensation     To summon meaner spirits to do their will     And gather round them at their need; inspiring     Such with a love themselves can never feel,     Passionless'mid their passionate votaries.     I know not if you joy in this or no,     Or ever dream that common men can live     On objects you prize lightly, but which make     Their heart's sole treasure: the affections seem     Beauteous at most to you, which we must taste     Or die: and this strange quality accords,     I know not how, with you; sits well upon     That luminous brow, though in another it scowls     An eating brand, a shame. I dare not judge you.     The rules of right and wrong thus set aside,     There's no alternative I own you one     Of higher order, under other laws     Than bind us; therefore, curb not one bold glance!     'T is best aspire. Once mingled with us all . . .     Michal.     Stay with us, Aureole! cast those hopes away,     And stay with us! An angel warns me, too,     Man should be humble; you are very proud:     And God, dethroned, has doleful plagues for such!     Warns me to have in dread no quick repulse,     No slow defeat, but a complete success:     You will find all you seek, and perish so!     Paracelsus     [after a pause].     Are these the barren firstfruits of my quest?     Is love like this the natural lot of all?     How many years of pain might one such hour     O'erbalance? Dearest Michal, dearest Festus,     What shall I say, if not that I desire     To justify your love; and will, dear friends,     In swerving nothing from my first resolves.     See, the great moon! and ere the mottled owls     Were wide awake, I was to go. It seems     You acquiesce at last in all save this     If I am like to compass what I seek     By the untried career I choose; and then,     If that career, making but small account     Of much of life's delight, will yet retain     Sufficient to sustain my soul: for thus     I understand these fond fears just expressed.     And first; the lore you praise and I neglect,     The labours and the precepts of old time,     I have not lightly disesteemed. But, friends,     Truth is within ourselves; it takes no rise     From outward things, whate'er you may believe.     There is an inmost centre in us all,     Where truth abides in fulness; and around,     Wall upon wall, the gross flesh hems it in,     This perfect, clear perception which is truth.     A baffling and perverting carnal mesh     Binds it, and makes all error: and to know     Rather consists in opening out a way     Whence the imprisoned splendour may escape,     Than in effecting entry for a light     Supposed to be without. Watch narrowly     The demonstration of a truth, its birth,     And you trace back the effluence to its spring     And source within us; where broods radiance vast,     To be elicited ray by ray, as chance     Shall favour: chance for hitherto, your sage     Even as he knows not how those beams are born,     As little knows he what unlocks their fount:     And men have oft grown old among their books     To die case-hardened in their ignorance,     Whose careless youth had promised what long years     Of unremitted labour ne'er performed:     While, contrary, it has chanced some idle day,     To autumn loiterers just as fancy-free     As the midges in the sun, gives birth at last     To truth produced mysteriously as cape     Of cloud grown out of the invisible air.     Hence, may not truth be lodged alike in all,     The lowest as the highest? some slight film     The interposing bar which binds a soul     And makes the idiot, just as makes the sage     Some film removed, the happy outlet whence     Truth issues proudly? See this soul of ours!     How it strives weakly in the child, is loosed     In manhood, clogged by sickness, back compelled     By age and waste, set free at last by death:     Why is it, flesh enthrals it or enthrones?     What is this flesh we have to penetrate?     Oh, not alone when life flows still, do truth     And power emerge, but also when strange chance     Ruffles its current; in unused conjuncture,     When sickness breaks the body hunger, watching,     Excess or languor oftenest death's approach,     Peril, deep joy or woe. One man shall crawl     Through life surrounded with all stirring things,     Unmoved; and he goes mad: and from the wreck     Of what he was, by his wild talk alone,     You first collect how great a spirit he hid.     Therefore, set free the soul alike in all,     Discovering the true laws by which the flesh     Accloys the spirit! We may not be doomed     To cope with seraphs, but at least the rest     Shall cope with us. Make no more giants, God,     But elevate the race at once! We ask     To put forth just our strength, our human strength,     All starting fairly, all equipped alike,     Gifted alike, all eagle-eyed, true-hearted     See if we cannot beat thine angels yet!     Such is my task. I go to gather this     The sacred knowledge, here and there dispersed     About the world, long lost or never found.     And why should I be sad or lorn of hope?     Why ever make man's good distinct from God's,     Or, finding they are one, why dare mistrust?     Who shall succeed if not one pledged like me?     Mine is no mad attempt to build a world     Apart from his, like those who set themselves     To find the nature of the spirit they bore,     And, taught betimes that all their gorgeous dreams     Were only born to vanish in this life,     Refused to fit them to its narrow sphere,     But chose to figure forth another world     And other frames meet for their vast desires,     And all a dream! Thus was life scorned; but life     Shall yet be crowned: twine amaranth! I am priest!     And all for yielding with a lively spirit     A poor existence, parting with a youth     Like those who squander every energy     Convertible to good, on painted toys,     Breath-bubbles, gilded dust! And though I spurn     All adventitious aims, from empty praise     To love's award, yet whoso deems such helps     Important, and concerns himself for me,     May know even these will follow with the rest     As in the steady rolling Mayne, asleep     Yonder, is mixed its mass of schistous ore.     My own affections laid to rest awhile,     Will waken purified, subdued alone     By all I have achieved. Till then till then . . .     Ah, the time-wiling loitering of a page     Through bower and over lawn, till eve shall bring     The stately lady's presence whom he loves     The broken sleep of the fisher whose rough coat     Enwraps the queenly pearl these are faint types!     See, see, they look on me: I triumph now!     But one thing, Festus, Michal! I have told     All I shall e'er disclose to mortal: say     Do you believe I shall accomplish this?     Festus.     I do believe!     Michal.     I ever did believe!     Paracelsus.     Those words shall never fade from out my brain!     This earnest of the end shall never fade!     Are there not, Festus, are there not, dear Michal,     Two points in the adventure of the diver,     One when, a beggar, he prepares to plunge,     One when, a prince, he rises with his pearl?     Festus, I plunge!     Festus.     We wait you when you rise!