My Trust

A picture memory brings to me     I look across the years and see     Myself beside my mothers knee.     I feel her gentle hand restrain     My selfish moods, and know again     A childs blind sense of wrong and pain.     But wiser now, a man gray grown,     My childhoods needs are better known,     My mothers chastening love I own.     Gray grown, but in our Fathers sight     A child still groping for the light     To read His works and ways aright.     I wait, in His good time to see     That as my mother dealt with me     So with His children dealeth He.     I bow myself beneath His hand     That pain itself was wisely planned     I feel, and partly understand.     The joy that comes in sorrows guise,     The sweet pains of self-sacrifice,     I would not have them otherwise.     And what were life and death if sin     Knew not the dread rebuke within,     The pang of merciful discipline?     Not with thy proud despair of old,     Crowned stoic of Romes noblest mould!     Pleasure and pain alike I hold.     I suffer with no vain pretence     Of triumph over flesh and sense,     Yet trust the grievous providence,     How dark soeer it seems, may tend,     By ways I cannot comprehend,     To some unguessed benignant end;     That every loss and lapse may gain     The clear-aired heights by steps of pain,     And never cross is borne in vain.